rules part quatre

the purpose of the mosaic law as it turned out, wasnt to save jews but to prove to them that they were incapable of keeping it. after all, so flawed are we that we couldnt save ourselves even if our own asses depended on it. rules and laws do not teach the heart, only the body. the law, intended to be a scaffolding structure for the jews, became a stumbling block and iron curtain, preventing their own promised salvation.

it reached the point where God literally had to hand down a deus ex machina in the form of his son so that all the hopeless people may be saved. and yet they still shut their eyes to it. they did not see that the new age of grace ushered out the age of law, such that none of them needed longer to answer to disciplinarians. the law was meant to save them--it wasnt abolished; it was simply fulfilled that day at golgotha.

sure, its been written numerous times what one needed to do to enter the great kingdom. but really, everything that was listed are suggestions leading to the spirit of love. if there is no latter, then there is no former. and the pharisees followed the law to the letter, and yet they told squarely that they were were to be denied from heaven. why? because blind faith is not faith. one can follow all the rules and yet still fail, simply because one does not bother to understand why those rules exist. their hearts were always in the law and never in God. the more i read into the pauline scriptures the more i see this in religion today, especially my own.

there are a million ways to love someone. i dont understand why people have to go to church to find out how to do it, especially from leaders who remind me so much of the pharisees. well i guess someone has to take the fall for the rest to be saved, after all, even the jews had to be sacrificed for the sake of the gentiles. seriously, there is so much judgment and so little tolerance. sometimes i am so ashamed. if jesus were still here in person today, every pastor would get an ass-kicking.

you and your rules. you exclude people from your flock. you wear nice clothes and drive big cars and though you give to the poor, you laugh at those who worship idols. you shun all those who are different. and you do not teach your people not to shun those who are different, you impose your laws on those who arent even under your roof. you enforce before teaching. you teach words of man, not words of God. bad that even your sheep do not know any better. worse that they depend on you to teach them. worst of all, you would deny all of this.

house

House: What did she hallucinate?

13: The content of the hallucination isn't relevant.

House: Not usually...

Foreman: Not ever.

House: We know nothing; the brain knows all...it knows what the problem is, knows where the problem is-

Foreman: It's a big logical jump from a body's immune response to the brain giving subconscious diagnostic quotes.

Chase: What about dreaming about waterfalls, running streams if you need to go to the bathroom?

Foreman: Sure. That's the same as the brain shouting "you have pancreatic cancer!"

House: Her subconscious is trying to tell her something. We need to eavesdrop...

Taub: She was screaming she was being sucked into a black hole, so...we should look for a tumour in her anus?

ohnoes, not haiku again

world pond

leaf in black wind

frozen torrents torture it;

resilient always

bright willow flying

nothing, everything, nothing

unforgettable

toad on lily pad

clockwise in stagnant water

world's worries now known

white hyacinth sways

stem and pistil unbeknownst;

brown stick insect knows

silver snail racing

connecting self and unself

neuron overload

pink calf crouches low

up springs narcissus' peacock

rippling passion

white egret landing

grey rock pushing back blue lines

seeing all that hides

a fearful fish swims:

scales of fate decide for it;

numbered are its days

butterflies by night

enshroud the morning glory

tangled up in vine

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gossip boy

im disappointed in the gossip girl writers, in that so many of the ladies in there have the same vindictive streak. i mean, come on. why are all of them so fast to act on their emotions? its really not playing well with reality. aside from the mildly sociopathic georgina sparks we have the vengeful blair waldorf, evil grandma van der woodsen, the sometimes unreasonable vanessa abrams the annoyingly impressionable jenny humphrey and the plain annoying eric van der woodsen. COME ON not all girls are like that. yes, i dont regard eric as a boy since he acts like all of them.

and jenny, seriously. i thought she was a good one. lately shes become a dangerous bitch. i know it makes for good drama but damn it, who among the audience can find anyone left to look up to? every tv show should have at least a couple of characters to ground all of the crazy shit down and not alienate its most important viewers (*ahem*) with ridiculous crap.

thankfully i have lily bass to restore my faith in womankind. i think rufus and her are great together--in fact i think rufus is a pretty cool guy, notwithstanding i think hes making a stupid mistake right now. you stupid dummy. thank your God that lily isnt like the others. and since when did dan become the father figure with all the wise lessons?

and chuck bass. i always believed in his good side considering the ways of his cassanovic past. i always liked him somehow. now i am convinced. i think its because we think alike and we choose alike. actually i see alot of myself in him. well apart from the billions of money and suave charm and the hunger for success and the fact that my esfp friend isnt a hot chick. ok thats alot of exceptions but whatever.

i get involved when i watch tv. i get upset when shows finish their runs. its like i invested a part of myself and then one day everythings suddenly over and im lost and left behind. and then i start on a new series and torture myself all over again. im so conflicted and dramatic. damn it they should write a show called greg-san. it would be a comedy-soap-drama. it would have powerful women, hot chicks, respectable men, gays, lesbians and midgets. there would be much swearing, partial nudity and other questionable content. oooh, i already have one or two people in mind to cast for some of the characters.

aphasia part trois

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a white wave sweeps all

washing everything away

and this watchman cries.
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